Spiraling

The past two weeks have been draining, mostly emotionally, but physically as well. I've felt so out of control and lost.

About 3 weeks ago, I stopped swimming until I could get my shoulder and neck worked on by the chiropractor. Little did I know that it would be the last time for several weeks. It was feeling much better until the fall off my bike where I really injured it again. Since then, the only exercise I did was getting on a spin bike later that week.

To top it off, my house is under major repair where it's literally torn up. It's created such an uncontrollable chaos and mess, it's disconcerting.

The spiral continued. I haven't slept well at all, partly because of the chaos; partly because that shoulder is the on the side I sleep most nights. I wake up for an hour or two every night and can't get back to sleep without stewing. I try to read for a while and sometimes that helps. Because of this pattern, I've been shutting off the 4:45 alarm and skipping workouts. It's a nasty cycle. I miss workouts, which makes me more grumpy, which makes me not sleep enough...you get the picture.

Last night I finally gave up and took a Tylenol PM before heading to bed. In the past, that's helped keep me asleep. It helped a ton. I didn't budge all night and woke up around 6:30 feeling the best I've felt in a while. I actually feel like riding tonight, if I didn't have plans at the ballpark.

Construction will be done (hopefully) on Friday and I can get my both my physical and mental houses back in order by the end of the weekend. The triathlon is less than 60 days away now and I'm getting nervous about this large break in training. I'll finish, but it's not going to be as good as it should have been. I'll just be glad when this is all over.